Happiness is a path you choose.

Saturday, September 11, 2010

The stupid class was cancelled so I made my way home, early enough to catch a little bit of TV before I hit my pillow. So I sat down and watched the 911 special documentary on History Channel and it featured phonecalls made from the tower after the crash and before it came down. It was heart-wrenching watching families relieving the account, how they picked up (or missed and listened to the voicemail), hearing the last words of a beloved one, saying their goodbyes. It was devastating. They exchanged 'I love you' and some tried to sound as calm as they could and promised to call back once they're safe again. And there was nothing the family members could do, except sit by the phone waiting in fear, and perhaps nervously watching the live news only to see the buildings crashing down one after another right before their eyes.

How brave of those who reassured their loved ones they were safe, and they would call again. I suppose they could see the devastation for themselves, the fumes, the walls coming down, the screams, the terror and the people jumping down above outside of their windows. How much hope did they really carry about making it out alive? I don't know. But till this day, I count my blessings that no one in my life has met with anything like this.

Sometimes things like these make you realize the vulnerability of life. It inflicts a sort of sharp pain on your soul, and you wonder if there's any wrong in your that you might want to make right. Family members whom you don't always cherish and more often than not, take for granted. Friendships that were broken and never mended. Or people that crossed your path in life, had laughters and joy with, but due to the conveniences of life, you ceased to keep in touch with. Would you find that these are regrets in your life? Or knowing that, you would still choose the conveniences of life?

♥ 1:01 AM

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Saturday, August 28, 2010

Belated entry for this year there was a distinct lack of enthusiasm. Apathy would be a more apt word. I think the birthdays after the 21st would just be the exact opposite of the ones before 21st. It was like a "oh, another year gone by" to me, no hyped up parties or whatsoever. But I was nevertheless still content with the cosy and warm affair with my dearest ones.

My surprise cake at the bf's house. A plan which i saw through but was still caught by surpise. His parents joined in the celebration too! :))

Sushi lunch with yk, verlao and simon. Pictures of only our favourites.

Then another surprise cake by sis and mum.

And the best present in the world......!

A very good present i must say! :))

I want to capture every moment of this cuteness. But there's so much of it that I get everyday and at times, I just laugh them away and forget all about it because his next eccentric antic would surface almost rightaway. I want to remember all of them

but I guess I already lost count.

This is only one of the many special momets, but definitely on my favourite list. :)

♥ 11:09 PM

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Sunday, August 22, 2010

Facebook chat message with my Korean Dance professor from my exchange:

Jin Sook Yang0.Jin Sook Yang.Clear Chat History

12:16amMe

but i only teach very simple hiphop
teaching amateurs
so they wont be able to tell i can't teach well :)

12:17amJin
you are great and you love dance
and also ur personality is lovable
that means u r perfect to teach dance!!!
hahaha
i'm following u!

12:17amMe
no no nooooo
please don't say that!
haha but thank you so much seonsaengnim!

12:18amMe

you're so much more awesome, you insipre me!

12:18amJin

wish u were here
haha
what are we doing!!!
lol
come to korea
or i will go to you someday
^^
so we can talk who's better! ok???

12:19amMe

yes please!
i can't go to korea anytime soon
i'm a broke student now
:(

12:20amJin

haha
u r so cute!!!
ur bf is lucky

12:20amMe

please come to singapore, i'll be your private tour guide for free!

12:20amJin

yei!!!
when is good time for u?
winter time?

12:21amMe

december would be the best time because sch term ends

12:21amJin

right

12:21amMe

yes yes :)

12:21amMe

i'll be on vacation
but if you can come on other times, i'll try my best to take you around every free time i have on hand!

12:21amJin

i will make a plan to get there any time soon esther~

12:22amMe

yay i'm excited :)

12:22amJin

haha me too :))

12:22amMe
Many people are much stronger than me, so I'm really not very good at all.

12:32amJin

u r good enough
plz teach me later
ok?
:)

She's my dance teacher from Soonchunhyang Uni (the school i attended for my recent exchange program) and I can't say more how much I respect her as a dancer and as a teacher. She's really young and pretty but more importantly, she's the most patient and open-minded dance teacher I've ever had. She's sincere and she encourages every student, giving her students unimaginable space for creativity, even if it means butchering her choreography or intended techiniques/flavour. I think a broad mind is exactly the kind of characteristic a teacher needs. A student who learns your steps doesn't necessarily need to it your style. Because each and every dancer has the right to interpret the music in his/her own way. I think this is one thing that many of us dancers lack too. We are so focused on getting the steps right, we lose ourselves into the steps, when we really should be losing ourselves into the music.

okay, preaching on dance aside, my dance teacher is so cute isn't she? :)

She's the sort of person who leaves an impact on your life once she crosses your path and I aspire to be someone like her. ^^

♥ 2:20 AM

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Saturday, August 21, 2010

simon says:
and you are my xiang xiang princess. :)

♥ 2:13 AM

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Monday, August 16, 2010

Oh so happy.
Oh so so happy.
Oh so so so happy.

Because a sweet loving boy appeared at my doorstep in the midst of dinner with a bouquet of flowers, and a hand-made album filled with memories from our overseas trip.

I might have been happier some other day before in my life, but today's a happy one for as long as I can remember.
:)

♥ 11:40 PM

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Sunday, August 15, 2010

I should note this down before it slips my mind like the past few weeks already did.

The vacation's been a luxury. Feels like an extended holiday since my return from overseas, well spent on one after another episode of South Park and Heroes, lying on bed reading the musty pages of library books, meeting dear ones to rattle away for hours, going to work but not dreading it (for once), having the time to travel to the bf's place to cuddle together for coffee, chips and movies, and even going on discounted lunchtime buffets with his parents. These are things I've not done in the longest time ever.

I must say though, that I appreciate every single moment of such idling.

How nice if only things could stay this way, but I know reality's call isn't anything I can avoid. There's school to go back to, there's my study loan I need to start working towards paying back, there are things I missed out on that needs to be catched up on.

One I can start with is by clearing my luggage that still lies on the floor of my living room. :S

But anyways, so far the highlight ever since i got back to life here, is teaching dance at various places and having the people taking my class tell me that they've really enjoyed it and would like to know where I usually teach at so they can attend my class there.
It makes me beam. Not really with pride, but a satisfying sort of feeling. Satisfied with myself for that 1 hour spent, satisfied that the customers were satisfied. :)

♥ 1:49 AM

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Sunday, August 8, 2010

Because I've been happy like a bird.

I feel my wings take flight and the cool breeze through my toes.
The warmth of the sun on my face,
The gentle touch of one's fingertips.

I think life is not the same anymore.

♥ 5:22 PM

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